Tuhan sayangkan saya..

Do you wonder why i wrote that title..? Hehehe..

Well, here it goes..Camne nak start eh...? Hurm..camni la. If can categorize myself, i would say that i am a person with lack of communication skills. Sangat2 lack (almost nonexistence).. I am not that good when it comes to communicate with others.. I would prefer to be silence or express myself in terms of writings.. Bukan nak kate Tuhan bagi I takde suara or takde mulut.. Just skills tu je yang takde.. Memang kadang2 rase nak nangis sebab takde kelebihan tu.. Tapi Allah sayangkan i.. Allah gives me senyuman yang manis (puji diri seniri, tapi memang ramai yang cakap k..) untuk ganti kelemahan i tu.. :) I sangat2 bersyukur untuk tu..

ermmm..manis tak senyuman neh..hahaha..tak manis, tambah gule seniri k..

 Other than that, Allah gives me somebody throughout my whole existence (28 years k..) to accompany me in order to compensate my weakness. Alhamdulillah for that too.. Since I was born (memang la tak terer bercakap, sebab tecit lagi.. :)) I was bestowed by a great mom.. She took care of all the talking part since i was born till i'm 13 years old (till now sbenarnye..tp sbb skang dh bsr and jauh, dh kawen lagik..hehehe..). So during that years, she will do all the talking.. I would prefer to be silence and giving smiles.. Even to my relatives k. I tak suke pun nak bersembang.. :) My dad plak, he is a great man too.. He is not a big fan of talking gak.. My dad agak pendiam gak.. (i think i got it from him kot..hehe..) But he is the one that will help me to fill up forms.. Dari tecit sampai la dah besar gabak neh.. Nampak tak, more to writing part la..

My parents waktu di Muzium ATM @ Port Dickson..

My momma and daddy @ kedai Nasi Lemak Ayam Kampung..omnomnomnomnom..

Raye 2011 kot..tak hengat..

Yang ni raye gak..raye jek la dpt bergambo bersame..

The whole family is here!!Keluarge kami tak la besar ngat..Kami berlime jek..Tapi its a happy family la..i loike.. :) owh ye, pada ketika and saat ini, dua2 tu masih single lagi..andai ade yang berminat, sile comment ye..muahahaha.. :P

Then when i'm 13 years old, i dimasukkan ke asrama.. So start from that, my talking part was done by my good friends.. Yup, the whole bunch of them.. I got Asma, Haida, Aishah, Hafizah, Suriaty and Erna (she's not a talking type gak, but she's a good friend of mine though.. :)). So diorang ni la that will do the talking for me.. macam biasa, I'll only senyap and smile..hehe.. :) They will help me to talk with the cikgu2 and even my crush pun..owww.. Haha..Sekolah2 dah gatai.. This has been continued till i was 17..

Berdiri: Haida (baju kuning) and Sharifah (geng gak neh). Separa berdiri: Khuzaifah. Duduk: Hafizah (tudung putih), Asma (pegang kayu) and Suriaty (buat peace)..

Ni gambo diorang gak cuma ade tambahan beberapa rakan2 dari kelas yang laen.. Aishah adelah yang duduk depan jejaka yang ade towel merah atas kepala tu (yeop)..

Ni plak Erna namenye..

Next, bile dah umur 18, I went to the university plak.. During my matriculation years (1 1/2 years), I was given a really true friend name Rabiatul Adawiyah Binti Anuar (wah!!full name lagi..hoho..). She was a great talker.. Hahaha.. Talkative i would say.. Banyak cakap and terer bercakap.. Bernas kate-katenye.. Hahaha.. Tak kira dengan siape pun.. Hebat.. Hahaha.. But for me, still tak suke bercakap and just standing beside her and tersengih2 jek.. :) Thanx a lot dear..

Ada..bersama anaknye..maaf ye..gambar ini dicilok dari FB anda ye Ada..hehe..

Ni juge rakan2 di tempat kuliah dulu.. Kiri belakang: Dilla, Aznah, Hani, Huda, Fatihah and sape ntah.. :) Duduk dari kiri: Hafizah, Nad, Fathiah, Ada and Rafidah..

So next, i continue buat degree.. 4 years wat degree.. Here, i was given a great friends gak.. I got Awin (real bestie..), Kak Ain, Atul and Amoi.. Diorang ni memang semua banyak cakap.. Hahaha.. and diorang ni semua memang suke wat lawak.. Jadi function saya disini adalah tukang senyum and tukang gelak je.. Kat sini gak i ade sorang room mate yang agak banyak cakap, name Husna. Dia ni pon penolong i dalam issue bercakap-cakap neh.. Tapi tak lama, coz dia ditransferkan ke cawangan laen tak lame lepas tu.. Tapi geng2 yang lain tu still ade.. Thank God.. :) Hurm, anyway I can text them with joke, but when it comes to real life, i'm speechless.. Lebih banyak gelak dari kuarkan words.. Hehehe.. :)

Husna on her wedding day.. Comey kan.. Hehe..

Dari Kiri: Amoi, me, atol and k.ain..this is on awin's wedding day.tema pink k..

Kami waktu wedding amoi.. Yang tudung itam (atol)and yang tudung biru (awin)..

Ni raye bile ntah..2011 rasenye.. Dari kanan plak ar: awin, atol, k.ain, me :), lia and amoi..

Picca ni dalam tahun ni gak.. Bulan lepas rasenye.. Lepak kat NZ Wangsa Maju. Dari kanan lagi skali: awin, atol, me, leman (asben amoi yang malu2..hahaha..), amoi and k.ain..

Bila habis je degree, i tercari cari kerja.. So during this time, i lived with my opah cik and my elder sister (kami menumpang di umah opah cik coz umah dia di KL).. Cari kerja kat KL la, kat Ipoh tamau.. Haha.. Takdelah. Dah rezeki di KL, jadi berhijrah la.. So dalam a year gak, opah cik and ayong (my sis..) did the talking for me.. Tq.. :) (maaf..tiada gambo opah cik/opah limah..tak penah tangkap gambo beliau..later la kot eh..)

Ayong.. Orang Perak memang gune ayong instead of along k..

Ni dia gak..dia memang suke bergambo..kat mane2 jek..

Ni waktu my convocation.. Dia bagi bebear kat i.. i loike..

Then tak lama lepas tu, I got an offer untuk kerja kat Pahang (with the help of my friend sbenarnye..Husna yang kenal waktu degree tu..). Waktu di Pahang, Husna serumah with me sekejap, then dia pindah sebab dia kawen.. Hehe.. Happy for you dear, tapi i dah takde tukang cakap.. Cemane neh.. Then tak lame lepas tu i rapat dengan sorang kawan ni plak.. Then ade jodoh (wah gitu!!) kami ditakdirkan serumah.. 

Husna and me waktu dinner di Pahang suatu ketika dulu..

Me and husna lagi..In her car rasenye..ntah la.dah tak ingat..hehe.. dia ni terer maths k.. Dia juge bole menjadi tukang kire2 selain tukang bercakap.. hohohoho..

Her name is Sharifah Maisarah Binti Syed Hussain.. Dia memang terer bercakap. Kalo nak gaduh pun dia akan tolong cakap gak.. Haha.. I kenal and baik ngan staff dari department laen pon atas jasa beliau k.. Baek ngan students dari school laen pon coz of her.. (Tau dah i kerja ape kan..hehe..) She will help me in the introducing part and all the bersembang part.. I akan dok sebelah dia, angguk, geleng, senyum and kuarkan beberape patah perkataan jek.. Hehehe.. Tapi ni pon tak lame.. Dalam 3 years gitu (lame la gak sbenarne..hehe..). Then, dia meninggalkan i to do all the talking.. She passed away in an accident on 29 May 2011 (Sunday).. Sedih sangat2..

Allahyarhamah ketika ade dinner di hotel ape ntah..tak ingat..yup, my memory is not that superb..teruk betol.. Neway, dia try my accessory, thats why dia suh snap gambo neh..

Ni gambo dalam toilet hotel.. Dalam toilet pon jadik budak kecik neh..

Ni waktu jadi facilitator untuk program Puncak Jaya..program untuk bebudak SPM..

However, macam i said earlier.. Tuhan sangat sayangkan i. After the big loss, Allah bestowed me with a great, wonderful, good, understanding and best person to do the talking for me.  He is my beloved en.asben.. Mr Abu Huzaifah Bin Mohamad Radzi.. We get married on 11.11.11.. So from that time till now.. He is my voice, negotiator, translator and etc.. Hehe.. :) Dia jugak menggantikan tugas my dad dalam issue mengisi any forms yang berkaitan ngan i.. Jadi dia lebih kurang macam side kick i sangat banyak membantu i.. Macam Batman yang ade Robin sebagai assistant.. Hehehehe.. Thanx a lot b..

Buah ati pengarang jantung..

me and my soul..(en.asben sakit mata plak on wedding day tuh..)

the latest of our picture during the vacation to Medan..entry laen i story mory psl trip to Medan tu eh..sshnye nak cari gambar pakwe ni sorang2..maklumla, photographer-tak suke gambar ditangkap.. :P

Hurmmm.. Now, this is why i said earlier yang Allah loves me.. Dia kurniakan i seseorang yang amat bermakna throughout my life in order to complement me. Nak cover kelemahan i tu, i sentiasa diberi seseorang atau berorang-orang la.. Hehe.. :) Thanx a lot Allah.. Alhamdulillah, puji and syukur dari hambamu yang serba kekurangan ini atas segala rahmatmu.. Yup, memang ade kalanya rase nak nangis sangat2 sebab my PR (public relation) is sucks, tapi  I patut bersyukur coz i dikurniakan senyuman yang manis and ade mulut and suare pon.. Just kene asah and kalo rajin, kene amek kelas to improve my PR tu..  Dalam entry ni la rasenye paling banyak emoticon smiley tuh.. I loike.. Hehehe.. Big grin.. :)))

p/s: This is why I jarang buat call or angkat call.. Coz i had the fear of talking. Tak kire strangers nor relatives.. I just don't like to talk.. I would prefer e-mail, sms or blog or any written form la (chat pon tak suke ngat, coz chat tu mcm conversation, nanti i takut there's a silence and awkward moment).. :)) Smile untuk semua..

Me and my big family (family belah ibu je sbenarnye ni) during our wedding day..